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2002-07-18
1. I love the place where I live. I hate leaving it, I always end up missing the noise, the stress, the buildings, the cars, the pollution, the CITY!
2. When I was in kindergarden my favourite game was the "kissing game". It's when you run around, chasing the boys, then kissing them when you catch them. I always wonder why we stopped playing that when we were older.. ;)
3. I love chocolate. I could eat it forever.
4. I compare my life to songs.. I usually imagine the singers singing to me.. as if the songs are written about me and for me!
5. And one of my wishes is that someone would write a song about me, for me or singing a song dedicated to me..
6. I fall in love to easilly, all you have to do is make me laugh and I'm yours until you chase me away!
7. I hate hurting people... but I end up doing it all the time..
8. I love writing. If it's letters, diary, stories, poems.. anything that comes out from a pen that I'm holding..
9. I have this bad habit of saying the lines in movies I've seen way too many times..
10. I've been dancing for 9 years, but because of my food problems I quit practice right before the summer vacation.. I miss dancing..
11. I miss things all the time.. Every summer, I long for all those nights on this place called Bjøntegaard and the friends I met there. Every winter, I miss summer vacations.. etc..
12. I'm a messy person, both in mind and in reality.
13. I can't decide wether I like being cold or being hot better
14. When I go out with my friends for a swim, I'm either the first person in the water, or the last..
15. I never go into the water step-by-step, I just jump!
16. I hate fighting, I always try to avoid it, but it doesn't seem to work
17. When I read books, I use a picture of me and KD as a bookmark
18. I always have a book to read, right now I'm reading a novel from 1938, it's called Rebecca.
19. I like my stomach best when I first get up in the morning, when it's flat and beautiful.. before it's filled with food and all that stuff..
20. I hate travelling outside the country. I like it better when I'm at home with my friends, my room and my monsters that live under my bed
21. I'm afraid of flying, but I always wished I had wings
22. I love quotes! I always start a diary entry in my real diary with a quote either from a movie, a book, a song or from a person.
23. The last thing I wrote, started with: What's the point of having wings, if you can't feel the wind in you face (City of angels)
24. I have this obsession with creatures that have wings.. elfs, angels, butterflies.. but not birds. (Unless they're small, cute and cuddly)
25. I tend to catch myself doing the things I hate other people doing the most.. Like being mad, complaining, talking behind peoples backs..
26. I never wake up in the middle of the night unless it's something bad that's happening.. this means, that:
27. I never had troubble sleeping. I can fall asleep anywhere..
28. But I never liked sleeping, I like it better when I' awake and can keep my eyes on the ones I love
29. I worry about the faintest things! I always imagine I have some sort of sickness..
30. I cry when I'm at my happiest. I start crying when I get an A+ on my exams, I start crying when I hear a song I love, when I see a movie I adore, when I get a letter from my dearest friends that live far away.. etc..
31. I kinda like being sad, because that gives me the chance to write pages after pages with all the things that are going on in my head
32. I write to leave something when I die.. My diaries will then be open for the ones I love to read and they will maybe finally realize who I was and what I wanted and what I felt.. 'cause almost no one of them see that now.
33. I love filling out surveys and making lists like this!
34. I buy ca. 1 cd a week.
35. I've gotten to the point in my life, when seing myself in the mirror or in pictures doesn't bother me anymore.
36. I'm proud of myself. Of the things I've done, the things I've accheived and the things I've gotten to experience.
37. I live by the rule: It's better to regret something you've done, than all the things you never dared doing.
38. I have tapes with episodes of Dawson's Creek on it. I've seen Dawson and Joeys first kiss like a thousand times!
39. When I was in pre-school, I thought I could fly, but I quickly found out I couldn't when I hit the ground..
40. I try to only drink water, but with pizza I have to drink coke!
41. I love pizza!!
42. I'm the one in my old class, that was voted: Most likely becoming bisexual and a satanist.
43. And I didn't mind, since I always admired the gothic style, (though not satan!) and I always believed that we fall in love with people, not gender..
44. My roof is filled with posters. The first thing I see when I wake up, is Espen Lind.
45. But the first thing I think about, is KD..
46. I want to be remembered. Everywhere I go, I want people to notice me and then when they see me on the street, they'll go: Oh, I met her once. She's that weird girl who... something, something.. :)
47. When I was little I used to sing all the time. People stopped in the shops and listened when I was out with my grandmother. I once heard a lady say that I sang like an angel.. I'll never forget that.
48. But as the years went by, my insecurity took over and I no longer sang.. but if you sneak up on me when I'm home alone, you'll hear me sing whatever I do.. I love to sing.
49. That's why my nickname in class was La-La.
50. I often imagine my own funeral. Who's coming, what songs are played, etc..
51. And I've come up with the suggestions: Lene Marlin - Heaven is a place nearby, Infinity - Happy, Alphaville - Forever young and Goo Goo Dolls - Iris. But that's for now.. I guess I'll change my mind as time goes by..
52. When I was at a concert in Oslo Spektrum, the biggest stage in Norway. I said to my mom in the middle of the show: One day, I'll be down there. And then I pointed down to the stage..
53. But the closest I've come, is singing on the school stage. I performed with the song from Fame. You know, Fame, I'm gonna live forever! I'm gonna learn how to fly!.. And I remember being so disappointed in myself that I cried after the show.. but then a guy I barely know came up to me the next day and said: I never knew you could sing. You were amazing!
54. I bet I have the highest laughter you've ever heard.
55. I talk to stuffed animals as if they were alive.
56. I believe in ghosts, but I have never seen one.
57. I always have too big expectations to things, so I often get dissapointed..
58. There are people I think about every day, here are the names: KD, A, Aslak, Magnus, David, and K. Absolutely every day.
59. I can walk down the street and suddenly I smell something (flowers, food, a sent that I can describe..)that I remember I've smelled before.. in a place far away, in a time long ago.. That's why I believe we live more than one life..
60. When I'm afraid of dying, I suddenly realize that I've been so lucky.. I've seen so many things, I've met so many wonderful people, I've done so much.. I've been so happy.. Of course I want to keep on living and experience even more of these things, but if I die before I wake, I know I've lived a perfect life..