Magic Julle

2003-07-26

My mother had a baby. A girl was born 5 weeks early, july 24th. She was born in a hurry, with lots of help from all the doctors and now she's lying besides my mom with blood in her lungs, that's the reason she had to come out to this world so early.. my mom called from the hospital. She's sick, but the doctors all tell her it will be all right. I've been calling the baby Julle.. Magic Julle. My mom says she wants to call her Julie, so that's where Julle comes from.. Julie - Julle. I've always wanted a magic member of the family, so this can't go wrong. She has to be okay. And so does my mom. She just has to.. I said that I loved her for the first time yesterday, while we were saying goodbye on the phone. I never say things like that to members of my family.. we're not like that. But yesterday was one of those moments where you believe you have to tell her before you don't get the chance again.. And I said it. And she laughed and said: I love you to, my little pumpkin. Then she hang up, because one of the nurses came to talk to her..

I just hope this all will be all right. I don't know what my mom would do if she lost another baby, escpecially when she's already born. The four boys she lost was 4 months old, and that was in her stomach, they weren't ready to come out.. and they never did. They just died before they where born. But Julle is magical.. and she will make this and then we will play football and stuff.. when she gets older.

yesterday or tomorrow