Nicotine addict

2003-04-21

He's addicted to nicotine again. He is and he always have been. I thought I would care more whether he smoked or not, but I actually think I made the right decision by letting him go back to smoking as he used to. We take walks whenever he wants to have some nicotine down his lungs.. And we laugh. He's in much better mood and his mood affects my mood and suddenly we're the happy couple once again. And I love it. I truly love walking around in the sun with him. Him holding a cigarette, smiling at me because I'm so happy I jump around and act like I'm only 5 again. I hope things stay this way. And I truly hope he's one of the 50 % not dying because of smoking..

yesterday or tomorrow