tomorrow is a different day

.. you built your castles in the sand


2002-08-03


And I started bleeding from my nose today.. Without a warning or anything, it just started bleeding..

This can't be a good sign, can it? Something's got to be wrong, people just don't start bleeding from their nose like that.. I have to go to the doctor. I'm just going to have to deal with what she says is wrong with me.. It it's just lack of vitamins and proper food or bloodcancer.. Deal with it. DEAL

And I spent my day at Norway Cup today. Saw lots of people I haven't seen for ages, I danced a little, tiny bit.. Ate ice-cream and a chocolate-bar, got kisses from my dear KD, talked and laughed a lot and..

I met my ex..

*sighs*

I never thought just seing him like that could make me feel so awkward.. My friend A suddenly grabbed me and said: Oh-oh.. Then I saw him. He was walking in a crowd, staring down at the grass, so I just grabbed A and started walking faster. I don't think KD noticed at first, but then my ex turns around and shouts at me. Just.. HEY. And then he smiles. So I turn around and smile and wave, and then I keep on walking.. I felt weird. I felt alone.. I felt WRONG. That ain't the way it's supposed to be.. We shared a whole, fucking YEAR together, and when we meet eachother for the first time in two months, we both try to ignore eachother? Wrong, wrong, wrong.. I suddenly miss those awkward conversations that ends with both of you not having anything to say, because you actually both started the conversation out of politeness..

Those conversations are much better than being ignored, being the ignorer!

Boy you reminded me of putting these things into words

And save them, for a rainy day

Your shameful heart and your sinful soul

Oh, I'm amazed by you and all that you are

Your devious ways, you do the work of the dark forces in this world

And you're evil, oh yes you are ---

Damned, you're one man I just can't stand you're

Damned, you built your castle on the sand, you're

Damned, How could I ever want you for my man

I lost you now, so why do I care?

You really knew right from the start

How to work your way into my heart

And then you pulled the trigger shot me around the weakest

You're a disgrace to the human race with your pretty face..

Damned, you're one man I just can't stand you're

Damned, you built your castle on the sand, you're

Damned, How could I ever want you for my man

I lost you now, so why do I care?

- Shimoli

yesterday or tomorrow