The way I am..

2003-09-13

I'm still on the search of trying to find a sentence that describes who I am. I asked one more today.. "You're the most unsecure person in the whole world. Everything people tell you has an effect on you and your opinions.." At school I'm the girl that laughs the highest. That talks about sex with my friends. That smiles all the time and that can have loud discussions on whatever topic. What people don't know is that I don't have that much sex.. I have enough of it, but it's not like I screw my brains out whenever I'm with KD. People may think so, but it's more to us than fucking.. now, when that's out of the world. I don't laugh the highest all the time. Sometimes, I'm the one that cries the most silent. And my favourite thing to do is actually to write letters. And to send them in nice envelopes that I've made myself by cutting and pasting.. Sometimes I'm so proud of them, that I wish I was sending it to myself.. so that I could receive it.

I don't know why I've given the image of myself to the people at school.. that I'm so tough. That I'm in one way or another totally free of limits.. And even though I somehow wish I was that girl.. I wish that people could see who I really am on top of all that..

yesterday or tomorrow